I hope & trust all of you had a wonderful Christmas. Mine was really nice. I’m very thankful for my family & friends. And for y’all too. ☺️
Boy, am I looking forward to this New year. And I’m banking on it being exactly that.
Although thankful for the experiences, I feel that I put my energy into some things that left me pretty empty-handed. And I can honestly say it’s no one’s fault but my own. Expectations die hard. And it’s hard not to have them.
Someone recently told me too that I had lost my “sparkle”. Not sure if I had shared that. As I sit here thinking, I can’t put my finger on when exactly that may have happened. But I know their poignant observation was dead-on accurate. I live with me every day after all. And it was not so easy to swallow. A bit of a jagged pill.
I realize that a large part of this “new” year is going to have to start with me. No one but me. It all feels a bit weighty & daunting & I wonder whether I’m up for it.
By God’s grace there go I. Right?
Lord I believe. Help my unbelief.
As I prayed last night, flailing around in some of what I perceive have been fails, I heard quietly in my soul this very specific scripture –
For He shall give His angels charge over you to guard you in all your ways.- Psalm 91:11
ALL my ways, even the ones I’m not so proud of. That last part stood tall & affirming, reducing me to a puddle of humility & gratitude.
Amazing Love ~ how can it be..
Much more of it y’all & looking forward to some new things,