How long, O Lord? Will You forget me for good? How long will you hide Your face from me? How long will I harbor cares in my soul and sorrow in my heart by day? How long will my enemy loom over me? Take note and answer me, O Lord my God! Brighten my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death, lest my enemy say, “I have him,” lest my foes exult when I stumble. I for my part confide in Your kindness; may my heart exult in Your salvation! I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me. – Psalm 13:1-6
It has been a while since I asked God what He wanted to say to me. Last night when I did that is the chapter I felt I was directed to. And it fits.
I’m not surprised.
I have been in a bit of a dry & parched place for a while now. I do not feel like God has necessarily turned His back on me. But I do feel like this place is because of me. It rings hollow – a little cold & a little empty.
I am messy. And contradictory. And I feel SO much. And maybe sometimes not enough. I overthink & mull over till I’m dizzied. And I hate confusion.
I know that I’m uncomfortable here & that’s a good thing. I need to return to my First Love.
I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me.
He truly, truly has.
Much love y’all & much more leaning on the Ever-lasting arms,