The Battle Of Sight & Faith

Good morning. I hope everyone had a nice holiday celebrating our Independence.

I am knee-deep & sinking into something that was already there but hasn’t been so in-my-face until just recently. I mean, I knew it was there all along, but new things have cropped up & it just drives home the impending-inevitable outcome for someone I love very much. And my heart keeps breaking. Over & over.

I am still praying & believing but honestly I am not scratching & clawing through the carpet down into the padding like I was. I do have my moments where I still do but I have grown weary. I am battling feeling defeated. Deflated. Discouraged. But I also know I cannot give up. And I won’t.

I know as believers we are not to walk by sight but sometimes that is just damn hard. It is.

I teeter between sight & faith. Faith wins out each time but not without a fight from the other side. I think that’s where my weariness spews from.

I try to do things to divert my attention, to rest, to still enjoy life. And I do. Thank you God for my friends & family. My saving grace. But this situation still looms.

Sweet Jesus, help my loved one. Save them from their enemies. In your great Love & Mercy, preserve their life & hem them in on all sides – in spite of their choices.

Lord help me to not implode while I sit, kneel, crawl ~ in the waiting.

And help everyone reading this post who is feeling the same way, or knows someone who is.

In Your Precious name we pray,
Amen.

Join me in agreement y’all. I know I am not alone.

Much love & not giving up in the battle,

Bonnie

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