Good morning y’all –
My doggie, my lil brown buddy Otis has gotten very sick this week. It’s most likely due to the Cushing’s Disease he suffers from. But it scared me. I honestly thought i might be losing him this time. He is almost 17..
This whole thing with him was on top of something else really heavy I have been trudging & crawling through & I said yesterday that I didn’t think I could handle much more. There are just some times in life where we buckle under the pressure. We don’t hold it all together. We break down. We curse. We fall. We swing between laying down & giving up to hope beyond all hope. I mention it quite often but I so get the scripture – “Lord I believe – please help my unbelief.” – Mark 9:24
I am forever thankful that my wavering doesn’t stop God from intervening. It does not stop Him from extending His Great Love, Mercy & Grace. He is relentless in His pursuit of us, relentless in His bestowing this Love we cannot even fathom.
And to think – to really know – that He loves those I love so much more – eons more in absolute fact – than I ever did, could, or will.
A genuine miracle is much needed in my circle right now for someone i love more than I can express – & I am waiting expectantly for it to happen. Sitting, standing, kneeling, laying, crying, begging & believing in my unbelief. In my spirit I know how Great Thou Are. In my humanity I struggle because I have suffered so much disappointment & sadness in the midst of all the joys.
I have seen God’s perfect hand move many times before in ways I could never have manufactured on my own. Just thinking on them fuel & fan the flames of faith & hope this morning.
The beautiful power of testimony.
Much love & never giving up,