As many of you know I have been single for quite a while now. And what a ride that has been.
I have bumped along & not always so gracefully but I am learning what it is to be content in whatever state I find myself. The sucky sporadic periods of gloom have lessened & are lessening more by the day.
I’ve met quite a few fellas along the way – many of them very nice, great guys. Just not for me. And I have made some friendships that I know will last a lifetime. It’s no cut on anyone – but that puzzle piece has to have certain characteristics or it’s just not going to fit, for either of us. And that is not a shallow statement for the record. I am talking about things that definitely matter.
I have been in love once in the last 3 years & that didn’t work out – & to top it off it took me a solid year to get past the fact that it didn’t. I still think of him often & I pray he’s doing well & making his way to brighter days.
I was married for 14 years to my best friend & that too was a tough one to get past. I miss so many things – some not at all. I know he concurs. We both took valuable things away.
I am grateful that peace has been made in both those situations, at least on my end – & there is no more need for closure. Just the occasional pang of missing this & that for similar & different reasons. That in itself is a miracle. I feel free to truly move on to what’s next.
One next-much-needed transition of a different kind is coming for me soon. I am finally moving out fully on my own & that excites me more than you know. It’s just time. I am beyond grateful for the opportunities I’ve been given these last 3 years – friendships I’ve made, the love I have felt, things I have learned & the growth I have experienced. A priceless season I won’t ever forget.
And of late, I see healthy & wonderful relationships being formed in the lives of other singles around me that I love & care about – things I have prayed about & really wanted to see happen for them. They, like me, have hoped & waited for this – some longer than others – & it inspires me. I couldn’t be happier. It’s really is OK to delay fully committing till it’s right, even though it’s hard & lonely sometimes. It has to be SO worth it. It just has to be.
I honestly wish I could take parts & pieces & little lovelies from my favorites along the way & make you – whoever & wherever you are. But knowing me & my attempts at doing things myself – that would end in a Frankenstein-fiasco for sure. I’ll leave that one to my Creator thank you. 🙂 I do have a feeling maybe we’ve not met yet & that there are only one or two degrees of separation between us. And oh, what a sweet day that shall be. In the meantime, I will continue on my own treasure-hunt-journey-of-self-discovery. You’ll thank me for that one..
Here’s to what’s next – for me & for all my single peeps that desire the same.
Much love & contentment-in-the-waiting for the right one,